Hey it’s Jennifer.
I recently got ask a question that no one has ever asked…..What led to my conversion?
If you knew me when I was younger….younger than I am now…especially in high school that is a good question. I am not the same person I was then.
The short answer is my daughter. Finding out I was pregnant was a swift kick in the rear end to change my life and my priorities.
From the time I was born until the end of sixth grade I went to a Christian school. We were taught bible stories everyday, we had chapel time, and that church even had a bus that would come and pick up kids on Sunday and take them to church and back.
I always had a belief in God, and I knew and believed that his son came and died for everyone’s sins. I was taught that all you had to do was post the “sinners prayer” asking Jesus to come into your heart and save you and then you were saved. It was that easy, then when you messed up you prayed for forgiveness.
After I left the Christian school I don’t really remember going to church very much. I would go with a friend every now and again.
As a teen i never gave much thought to God or anything religious. When I met my now husband and we started dating I would go to Sunday service with him at the Collinsville church of Christ. I never really payed much attention to the sermons, I just went to be with him. After we were married we would still go to Sunday sermons, but I never made a commitment to God. I also shared the common thought of so many “religious people” seemed to be such hypocrites and I really didn’t want any part of that….On a side note if you feel that way just remember that each person stands infront of God on judgement day, if they were truly hypocrites they will be judged accordingly, but you will also be judged for your life-not theirs.
I had said the sinners prayer many times in my life and really thought I was okay. I never was baptized because to me that meant that I really had to make some changes, changes I didn’t want to make. I still remember a sweet friend in tears explaining to me that I needed to be baptized and that once I was it didn’t mean I would be perfect, but I would have God to help guide me.
When I found out I was pregnant I realized that I was going to be responsible for a child and her learning and examples would come from me. That’s a lot to take in. I knew that I didn’t want to go to hell when I died and I definitely didn’t want my daughter to go to hell.
The congregation I was going to had a gospel meeting when I was a few months pregnant and I decided to go every night.
I started paying attention and thinking about God more. We started going to more services. We would go to Sunday school, Sunday night service, and Wednesday night services. I learned a lot. The most surprising was that the bible nowhere said anything about asking Jesus into your heart to save you, the bible doesn’t teach that at all. It never teaches that faith alone is all you need to go to heaven. It never teaches that you just pick a church you like and go there. The church itself is Christians, the building you worship in is just that, a building where the members of the church come to worship and learn about God and how to live for him.
My daughter was born in November and the following January I was baptized.
I remember going forward and two woman who had come to be very important to me came up with me and took me into the room to change. They were both crying because they were so happy, I don’t remember which one said it, but I remember one of then saying that they had been praying for me to make this decision.
After I was baptized I worked on changing how I lived my life. I worked hard at making God the center. I worked at studying the Bible to learn what God expects from me. It was different than what I had believed for so many years. He expects to be the center all the time, not just when things are bad. He wants me to work for Him, and use my talents for him.
I was not a nice teenager and made lots of mistakes and have to live with those mistakes and regrets everyday. I am so thankful that I know I have been forgiven. I hope and pray that by raising my daughter in the church and teaching her about God and what he expects from us will keep her from making the mistakes I made in my life.
I know that as she grows she will make her own decisions and it is up to her to commit her life to God one day, but I have a responsibility to teach her and show her through my life and actions what God wants and expects from her.
I struggle constantly with growing my faith, letting go of negative thoughts, standing up for what God says, and living a life that shows God to others….it’s not always easy. It would be a lot easier to live my life however I want to and never give a thought to God and eternity…but that will just ensure my soul being lost and possibly the souls of people I love.
I encourage you to look at your life, and think about your afterlife. Study your bible, and learn what God expects.
There is nothing more important that God and putting him first.
Until next time,